Don't you dare tell me you have it so much worse then I do.. You don't have one iota of a clue as to the life I've lived thus far.. Your mother may be plotting against you now because of the crap your ex wife is putting you through, my mother walked out on me and my brothers when I was 13.. I didn't get to enjoy an adolescent teenage life, I had to take care of my brothers until they could do it for themselves.. Even then I'm tormented with the choices my youngest brother made because I feel like a failure for his drug habits..
So you don't talk to your parents because your current wife is a raging bitch and has you on a choke chain and short leash. Try having the only remaining parent tell you everyday that your worthless and a piece of shit, or that you're to stupid to breathe and would be dead if it wasn't a natural human thing..
You seem to have all these horrible relationships.. You chose them and chose to get rid of them.. No where is it my fault that you pick woman that try and drag you through the dirt.. Nor does that give you grounds to so the same to me..At least you've had relationships, I can't land a single male if my pathetic life depended on it.. My looks don't even warrant me a second glance from a guy no matter how hard I try.. I chose not to let people in because I hate being at the mercy of other peoples pity.. I am my own pity party of one because at the end of the day I chose either to let it go or to let it keep dragging me down.. I don't like people in my business because I don't like being in theirs..
I feel like I'm living out 50 Shades Of Grey.. One minute you are amazing, full of love, and smiling.. The next you are insane with anger, negativity, and rage.. You go from being warm and inviting to cold and distant within a few minutes.. I don't understand why I'll let you be while your on your phone, not bothering you by asking who always has your attention on there.. Yet the second I pick mine up it's like open season with questions.. What are you hiding that you feel you have to hound me to see if I'm partaking in the same shady things you might be doing?? It's aggravating that you have so many "weapons" to use against me an I have nothing.. Sure I could walk away but then I lose you.. And more often then not you rally are worth fighting for..
I feel as though there is a battle fighting inside me.. The outcome doesn't look good for either side and there will be more casualties then thought.. My head wants me to leave because it's the logical thing to do with the circumstances I've put myself in.. My heart is fighting to stay because it would do anything to help the man it loves.. The man I'm not supposed to love, but I do.. I tried my hardest to fight it.. I can't even explain the situation because I don't need the ridicule or the resentment or the backlash.. In the words of ADTR " I reserve my right to feel uncomfortable, reserve my right to be afraid.. I make mistakes and I am humbled every step of the way.. I want to be a better person.. I want to know the master plan.. Cast your stones, cast your judgement you don't make me who i am.."
What do you do when you have finally found who you've been looking for?? That one perfect guy that you know was meant for you.. The one that makes your heart beat so fast every time he looks at you that you swear he can hear it thumping against your rib cage..The one that looks at you with those eyes that'll make you feel like the only one in the room.. The one that makes you think of him the second you wake up to the second your head hits the pillow, but even then you ache to dream about.. The one that makes you choke on your words when he enters a room because of how amazing he looks to you.. The one that you'd would do any thing for so that you could keep him forever.. The one that.. Absolutely wants nothing more to do with you because he's grown bored after two months.. The one that used to always blow up your phone via text or FB but now not even a good morning.. The one that now is always on his phone messaging someone else the way he used to do with you.. The one that used to tell you he loved you but now won't even so much as say goodbye when he leaves..What do you do when your heart is telling you its breaking but your head won't listen?? What do you do when all you want is to go back, fix what's wrong, and hope it never happens again?? What do you do??
Ronnie used to be the lead singer of a band called Escape The Fate but was kicked out for either A.) drug problems B.) being arrested or C.) both.. There are stories that claim Ronnie was in violation of probation for his drug use and other stories claim he was being charged for murder back in 2006..Whatever the real reason the dude ended up in prison for five years because of it.. The murder charge one, he didn't even pull the trigger that left an 18 year old dead,his friend did but he took the fall for it.. Rather then have ETF disband his now ex-friend and ex-band mate Max decided to keep the band together..
Craig had been in another band called BlessTheFall but had left the band in the middle of a tour to be with his daughter and watch her grow up..He also wanted to find himself again because he wasn't sure if music was what he wanted to do.. After he decided that music was his thing he tried getting back into BTF but they said it would be best if he didn't come back..
From my understanding from reading interviews from both parties, both Ronnie and Craig were friends while Ronnie was still with Escape The Fate..Craig had even done some backup singing for the band.. When Ronnie got put away Max asked Craig to step up.. Of course Craig did and now Escape The Fate is the band it is today.. Ronnie is now out of prison, pissed off at anyone in ETF, and in a whole new band of his own called Falling In Reverse..I own "Dying Is Your Latest Fashion", "This War Is Ours", and "Escape The Fate".. Ronnie is lead on the first one and Craig is lead on the other two.. Both guys are amazing and just bring a sound that is their own and you can tell the overall difference.. Ronnie brings out a softer more mellowish side of ETF whereas Craig brings out this hardcore in your face type of ETF.. I plan on getting Falling In Reverse's "The Drug In Me Is You" when it comes out in a few weeks.. If I love it or hate it it'll be because of the overall sound of it and not because of who is singing.. I guess what I'm trying to say is, is that to me it seems no one can look past who singing and actually enjoy the music for what it is..And that's just really sad..